September 27, 2011

What An Interesting Month

The month of September started off so easy going......then it turned upside down......then it got really interesting......then it turned fun.......now it has calmed down some.

Now I know that's a lot of interesting information......let me explain each phrase:

--September started off so easy going.....
I got Taylor ready for school with his clothes & supplies that he needed. The first week of school went really well. He was excited to start school, see his friends & meet new ones. AWANA started up as well - that's always so interesting the first few weeks. 

--Then it turned upside down.....
I began having more & more issues with the van. It had been making an odd noise & I thought it was due to the tires being old. So I replaced two of the tires (which the mechanic put on one side rather then on the front like I asked). That didn't get rid of the noise. I was also told that I have to have the shocks & struts replaced on the van -- I have been told numerous times that shouldn't be the case yet, but they all forget that I have a 250 lb lift sitting in the back of the van 24-7. So with the issues with the van, I have not been out to see Daron since just after my birthday (the beginning of the month). That visit went horribly & ever since Taylor doesn't want to visit his Dad. That in itself is stressful enough. But add into it the van issues, school, AWANA, housekeeping, taking care of Taylor & myself, plus trying to make time to talk to Daron every time he calls (5-10 times a day) & you have stress overload. 

--Then it got really interesting....
As if the month was not already interesting & stressful enough, Daron & I got into an argument over the phone. He wanted me to use every extra penny I have after paying bills to fix the van. When I tried to point out that I needed money for food & gas, he didn't care. He just wanted Taylor & I to visit him multiple times a week no matter what it cost & in order to do that I had to use all of the money on the van. After that conversation, things have been interesting to say the least. I know that his mind is having issues, but I would have hoped that his commonsense would have stuck around a little while longer.

--Then it turned fun.....
I was offered the chance to go to the Ladies Retreat at Lake Ann Camp this year. I had been thinking about going, but hadn't fully made up my mind. When someone offered the chance, I knew that the Lord was providing. I am so glad that I went!! There were 7 of us ladies from my church & we were able to get to know each other better & deepen our friendships. Each of those ladies were my friends before we went & know they are dear dear friends who I love deeply in the Lord. I also learned so much from the speaker Kelly Minter - she is an author, a speaker & a singer. She spoke on the book of Ruth & I learned more then I had in the past as well as new things. I have so many wonderful memories from that Retreat!!
The Amazing group of ladies I went with!! I love each one of them like sisters!!



--Now it has calmed down some.....
I think that this month has finally come to the end of the roller coaster ride -- at least I hope so. There have been a lot of ups & downs all month long. I know that is normal, but this month seemed to have a lot more then normal. Since returning from the retreat I am trying really hard to focus on my relationship with my Heavenly Father. I'm also trying really hard to hand Daron over to the Lord & leave him there. I can't do this alone & I have to stop trying to do it alone. 

Now to see what October has in store for my family.....

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