March 12, 2013

Life As A Single Working Mom Is......

.....Interesting. Since the start of December, I have been working at a different school. I've also been working longer hours. The longer hours made it difficult to get Taylor to school in the morning. The last few weeks I have had to bring him to work with me at 7:15am & then take my 30 minute break after getting breakfast ready for child care at 7:45am. I was always able to get my entire job done, it just made for an interesting morning.

......Stressful. Trying to make sure that everything was taken care of between work & bedtime was insanely stressful. I'd get out of work at 1:15pm, stop at home to change clothes, try to do some cleaning, let the dogs outside, pick Taylor up, come back home, try to clean some more, make dinner, eat, take care of Taylor, make sure he got his homework done, get him settled down, let the dogs out again, get Taylor in bed, clean up from dinner, do laundry, try & relax a little bit, then finally climb into bed around 11pm or so - 6 hours before my alarm was due to go off. The next day I would do it all over again. Whew.....I'm exhausted just typing all of that.

......Encouraging. These last few months have been an encouragement to me. I love the job that I have & I am very grateful for it. But God knew that I needed to be in an environment where I could work & think at the same time. A place where I could spend my entire day praying over kids, teachers & staff. A place where I could sing with the Christian radio station & not feel like I was annoying someone. A place where I could offer comfort to the kids, teachers & staff during a difficult time when they lost one of their young students suddenly. But the school has been an encouragement to me as well. The day that Daron made his tough decision, I was able to talk to one a few of the staff members & share my journey with them. I was able to share how God was using this journey to help others. God knew that when that tough day came, I would be in a place that would allow me the time I needed to process through it without feeling like I was in someones way.

......Full of Changes. I started working at Kelloggsville High School November 5th & was moved to another school on December 6th. On Monday March 18th I will move back to Kelloggsville High School & resume my dish washing job. The next few days at this school will be bittersweet. I have grown to care for & respect the teachers & staff. I have also grown to care for the kids there as if they are my own. I have learned so many names & have gotten to know some of them better then others. I have enjoyed walking through the halls & seeing their smiling faces. On Monday I will see 600 high school students as they are rushing through the lunch line so they have time to socialize with friends. It will take a long time to learn anything about any of them (if at all). I won't have that connection to the students. But I know that God has me going back to Kelloggsville High School for a reason & I trust Him with everything.

......Rewarding. The time I have with my son after work has been more rewarding then it was when I wasn't working. When I go back to my original hours, Taylor & I will get to spend time together in the morning again. Granted, Taylor loved coming to work with me in the morning. He even made a comment that he wanted to be a lunch person like me when he grows up. I am seeing more & more that my time with Taylor is precious & I need to make the most out of the time I have with him. One of these days he won't want to be around his crazy Mom anymore, but I am hoping that he will look back on these time with good memories.

......Worth It All!! I would never trade any of the craziness, stressed out days, sleepless nights, frantic mornings, tired afternoons for anything in this world. I know it's crazy, but this is the best time of my life right now. I have a crazy life with a lot of stressful stuff going on right now, but God put me on this journey for a reason & I will trust Him. There will come a day when I won't be this stressed out & I will probably miss all this craziness (at least I would like to think that I will), so for now I think I will just (try to) enjoy the ride.

1 comment:

  1. Hey crazy, busy, stressed out friend. We need to make time for each other in all that craziness too!


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