March 12, 2014

How Has Cancer Touched Your Life?

The school I work for has a Relay for Life this year. We are doing a lot of different things in order to raise awareness & spread the word about the American Cancer Society. This video was put together by some of our High School students. It features staff & students whose lives have been touched by cancer. I highly recommend watching it. Click Here to view the video.

Cancer touched my life without me even knowing it. My paternal grandfather was diagnosed with colon cancer....twice. When I was pregnant with my son I contacted my grandfather in order to get to know him. Shortly after we got in touch he went into the hospital. He found out he had lung cancer & passed away a few days later. Now that I know about his colon cancer, I have already had my colon checked & I am getting ready for another test.

Cancer hits people when they least expect it & it doesn't care who it hits. There are so many different types of cancer & they all affect people differently. There is a cure out there & we all can help find it. Please visit the Relay For Life Website or the American Cancer Society Website to learn more about how you can help find a cure.

March 8, 2014

I Never Thought It Would Be This Hard

When I met Daron & found out he had MS, I honestly didn't think twice about it. He had a job as a mechanic & was handling his MS very well. When we started to seriously talk about getting married & having a family I still didn't give it a second thought. His MS didn't control him or define who he was as a person. We lived a happy life (with it's normal ups & downs along the way of course).

When he had his flare in 2009 that was when I started to see a difference in how he acted in regards to his MS. I hate to say it this way, but that is when his MS started to take control. That was when the Daron that I married "left" the picture & the MS Daron took over. It was hard to watch. I pushed him as much as I could & when he told me to stop pushing I would back off. I never fully stopped encouraging him to fight his disease. I didn't want the MS to win & destroy my family. But I feel as though it did.

Nowadays it is hard to talk to Daron on the phone or see him in person. The man that I fell in love with is no longer in the foreground. Now I have a husband who hasn't fully accepted this path that God has put us on. I'll be honest, there are days when I don't accept it either. When I am having a rough day & I just want some privacy.....or when the roof starts leaking & I can't figure out how to fix it......or when Taylor is misbehaving & needs his father to set him start......those are the times when I start to yell & scream at God. Those are the rough days & that's when I start to hate the MS for taking my husband from me.

It's really hard to have a "normal" conversation with Daron anymore. A lot of the time it revolves around him wanting to come home or blaming me for putting him in the nursing home. Those conversations are horrible. I feel bad for Daron & I know that he wants to be at home with his family. It is just so hard to listen to him talk that way when I pray all the time that he will accept this path & move forward. When people say "being a caregiver is not for the weak" they were not kidding. I would not wish this on my worst enemy!!

I just keep praying that God will give Daron the peace of mind that he needs. I also pray that God will work His perfect will in Daron's life. I know & trust that God will perform a miracle in Daron's life when His time is perfect. I also know that the miracle may not be the one that I am praying for. God will heal Daron - but it may not be on this side of Heaven & that is ok. I will just keep trusting in God's perfect plan for my husband, for my son, for our family & for myself. God will never steer me wrong if I just keep following His path & His plan!

March 7, 2014

Amazing Story of Survival

A week or so ago I was contacted by one of my readers. She told me part of her story of surviving Mesothelioma. I read her story & learned more about Lung Leavin' Day. WOW! What an amazing & inspiring story. I am looking forward to celebrating Lung Leavin' Day myself. You don't have to be a lung cancer survivor to celebrate Lung Leavin' Day. The main point is to say goodbye to your fears.
I think it would be good for all of us to take time to write down our biggest fears & then watch them get destroyed in a fire. Saying goodye to fear is one of the biggest things we can do for ourselves & it is truly an amazing way to get rid of extra stress in our lives. I encourage each of you to visit her Lung Leavin' Day website to learn more about this day.
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Summer Break Is Here At Last!

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